June first 2012 I posted "Remember hope and believe even when you have no reason to believe...That You Can Do It!" on I2p's twitter account...In response to that tweet I was asked "How does one Believe when they have no reason to" and to my dismay I could not answer that question for at that very moment I did not know for I was going through a struggle that had been ongoing for the past two years and to tell the truth I was losing my faith, my way, and my belief… with no answer and that question dangling in my head I had no choice but to take a second look at myself… how in the world could I give the advice to keep pushing, hang in there, yada… yada… yada… the same old nonsense everybody tells everybody when I no longer wanted to keep pushing..when I was barely able to believe. All that question did was leave a thought; Was unthinkable success and wealth an unattainable mirage only met for the select few?
So I pushed back from I2p (what I believed to be my purpose) and searched myself and realized that boldness is a must… belief in self...belief in God’s ability and belief in your purpose vision or goal should be the pulling force that keeps you going. There will be moments in life when you must motivate yourself and be confident in your ability to deliver the goods when it seems as if you have none. At times we will have to battle alone but there lies your testing. will you give up because it is not going your way or will you persevere and keep chugging onward? For if you stop where you currently stand what you see before you lies your future… but if you keep going surely your tomorrow will be better than your today
There are many areas I am not proficient in but one thing I can identify with is struggle, dreams unattained, loss, and despair. so when I tell you if you just believe in yourself and the God given dream, vision, or goal he has impregnated you with and keep going until you birth it, every struggle of your past would truly be worth the reward. Please believe what I say for it happened for me.
The struggle I spoke of earlier was the battle of coping with and trying to overcome homelessness. Towards the end of 2008 I made the decision to clean up house and do better in life not just for myself but also my daughter. It was not until mid to late 2009 that I began the process of cleaning up my credit so that I could have that long awaited elusive thing I longed forsince childhood…I wanted a house a home to call my own. Never would I have known that the process would take almost three years. For over two years my daughter and I slept in the living room of a family members apartment, two years of feeling less than adequate sure I was working towards something but that mwand nothing when there is no proof in sight that it would ever happen. Daily I would tell my daughter one day we will have out house one day you will have your own room…One Day… until one day my day was today for on 9/11/2012 a day of such pain and loss for so many became the day I longed for, for what seemed to be eternity. I who never lived in a house became a proud homeowner, I who never owned much of nothing but debt and bad credit was able to win the over two year battle and got my house
Today if I was asked that same question I would answer it with confidence verses shutting down for I am more confident than ever in my ability, my purpose, and current role in life With a pressing desire to pursue the success of I2p and inspire all those around me in need of a little push to prosper by way of Realizing, Pursuing, & Obtaining their God given dream vision and/or goal
In closing the journey will not always be easy, trouble-free, or even tear free but if you don’t give up and keep believing eventually your "One Day" will be "Today"
Until next time...Be Inspired2prosper
This is my life unimpeded, unafraid and unashamed, on a journey from impoverishment to prosperity in every area!