I accepted the fact that as much as I want to lead others, and love to be around other people, in some essential way, I am something of a loner.~Arthur Ashe
I battle! I battle my desire for success, I battle my longing for support, I battle the pain of not knowing, I battle the struggle of uncertainty… so why is it that with all this conflict storming inside of me you who use your words to strike me down still have the ability to impair my vision, my heart, and my thoughts. You say that me leaving my job is in comparison to you being cheated on! Well I say to you, I have been cheated on and in no way does it compare! How dare you! How dare you! How dare you! Is there lasting happiness? Is it possible to be fulfilled in every area of your life? I have experienced more pain than joy; something is always missing and needed. Inside I feel like a scared little girl, when one thing is up another is down. How do I get off of this roller coaster of uncertainty and pain? Can I really marry someone who has an obvious disdain for my personality?
My heart is heavy but the show must still go on:
Tomorrow I have an appointment to interview the owner of a cute little boutique located in Union City GA! I am excited and a little nervous for she is one of the first to respond to the interview request I sent out...which happened just in time because I was on the verge of removing the Be Inspired page from the website due to my inability to keep the success stores up-to-date.
Also my book with the new cover I designed was delivered today :-)...happy, happy, joy, joy! When I opened the box all I could do was stare because I am still in disbelief that I create such a nice cover. With God nothing is impossible! thinking about that fills my heart with confidence and assurance that no matter what I am going through I will be alright because the Lord's got my back. My thoughts today ranged from ill at ease and sorrow to excitement and joy...whew what a day...lol
Until next time...Be Inspired2prosper!
This is my life unimpeded, unafraid and unashamed, on a journey from impoverishment to prosperity in every area!