As I sit where many have referred to as my “place of solace” I feel anything but. Loneliness surely appears at the most inopportune times for as of late it has been popping up more often than not. What can I do? What can I say? How much longer will this last? I make peace with my situation or whether my lack of just for the next day to come upon me and I feel the same way. I have no prospects, no choices, it’s all nonsense.
Where are the men who not only know what they want but are unafraid to go after it while still having the security in self to appreciate a woman who reciprocates the same for herself? Where is the guy that I am not only attracted to when I first meet him but is able to converse about something more than sex? who actually wants to communicate with good conversation not send sporadic three word texts, who loves the Lord and understands my desire to abstain until marriage, who will take me to greater levels and I him, who realizes, understands, and still excepts the sometime complexity of my inner as well as the imperfection of my outer.
In my field of work I have learned that at times I have to be aggressive, bold, and unafraid which trickles down into the way I approach my personal life. though I am an old school traditionalist at times I find myself having to be the one stepping up and taking the proverbial reins leading the horse if you may…But why? Are men so weak now days that they cannot even bother themselves to exert the energy needed to initiate anything?
I guess when God is ready to release him we will one day meet.
Until next time...Be Inspired & Prosper!
This is my life unimpeded, unafraid and unashamed, on a journey from impoverishment to prosperity in every area!