I made the massive decision to go ahead and resign from my position with the city of Atlanta! Yes, I’m finally quitting but fear has already tightened its deadly hold on me. Just typing this news brings me joy and anxiety for I am burdened with thoughts of failure and the discord it could cause within my relationship
It’s hard to believe in myself for not only is the fiancé already claiming that I am going to fail but I also doubt my own ability. Somehow his negative views and lack of faith have found its way into my heart.
I am not as courageous as I would have people believe for inside lies a scared little girl clamoring with fear at the thought of habitual struggle. But then I think about everything that has lead up to this moment. I think about where I came from, and everything the Lord has brought me through. I think about how much I have grown and how that would not have been possible if I continued to allow fear to stricken me.
Daily I encourage people to live their dream yet I myself lack the boldness to fulfill my own. I cannot live a life contrary to what I have been hammering into others, the bottom line is I either believe the message of I2p or it’s all a lie that builds false hope…
The pursuit of success is a daily walk for in trying to foresee onto its path prematurely can cause one to feel defeat before they even start walking. Tomorrow I will take one of the biggest leaps of faith I have ever taken by turning in my two week notice. I am tired of riding the fence, this dream of mine is not a hobby so it is about time that I stop treating it like one.
Side Note: It’s almost three am Tuesday morning and I am working on I2p, never would I have ever imagined that I even had the capacity to do this yet I’m doing it…now I just need that same drive when it comes to reading my bible…lol
To anyone out there who like myself longs for something different in your life I would like to share this Les Brown quote with you that just entered into my spirit
If you want a thing bad enough to go out and fight for it, work day and night for it, give up your time and your peace and your sleep for it. If all that you dream and scheme is about it, and life seems useless and worthless without it, and if you gladly sweat, fret and plan for it, and lose all your terror of the opposition for it, and if you simply go out for this thing that you want with all of your capacity, strength and audacity, faith hope and confidence, and stern tenacity, if neither, cold poverty famish or gaunt, sickness of pain of body and brain can’t keep you away from a thing that you want, if doggered and grim you besiege and beset it, with the help of God you will get it. – Les Brown
Until next time...Be Inspired and Prosper...
This is my life unimpeded, unafraid and unashamed, on a journey from impoverishment to prosperity in every area!